Pillar

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I am strong

 

Strong enough to save my tears

For when your eyes are turned

 

I am brave

 

Brave enough to hold my head high

Against fear, doubt, and rejection

 

I am resilient

 

Resilient enough to return in mercy

To those who have wronged and shamed me

 

I am secure

 

Secure enough to admit my own mistakes

And work to amend their repercussions

 

But just because I am strong

Doesn’t mean I don’t yearn

For the aid of a friend

 

Just because I am brave

Doesn’t mean I don’t wish

Someone would walk beside me

 

Just because I am resilient

Doesn’t mean I don’t ever need

Someone to help me back up

 

Just because I am secure

Doesn’t mean I don’t long for

Your reassurance when I feel weak

 

Because I can do it on my own

But that does not mean

I sometimes shouldn’t
Have to

The Withering Spring

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They have tried to tell me

What I am to do

Who I am to be

To this world

 

They ask of me

To do what no one else

Knows how to do

Simply

Because of

My name

 

After cold has cut

The hope of buds and bulbs

After wind has shaken

Trees naked and left them

Blackened from the frost

 

After snow has smothered

Every blade of grass

And sent the creatures

Of the wood into a sleep

Which consumes nearly half

Their lives

 

They call upon me

 

I am to melt the cold and frost

I am to raise the dead

And nourish the forest

And save the soil

From the bitterness of Winter

 

But what if I feel weak?
What if I no longer can stir

Warmth back into the wind?

What if my breath is not strong enough

To blow away the clouds from the sun?

 

What if I wither?

Then who can they call upon?
Who if not I

Can ease away the ice and snow?

The Summer is too harsh

Too sudden

For the gentle

Sowing of my Spring

 

The Fall is too weary

Too burdened

For the heavy

Raising of life out the earth

 

The Winter is too stubborn

Too relentless

For the mercy

Of letting go

 

And if the Summer won’t soften

And the Fall won’t liven

And the Winter won’t give in

 

Then I

The withering Spring

Must begin

Nightmares

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It’s not real

 

You say it to yourself

With your hands clutched

Around your covers

Your muscles tingle

Your heart feels loud

 

It’s not real

 

You close your eyes

But you memories

Just pull you back into

That nightmare

And even though you know

It couldn’t happen

It feels just like it did

 

It’s not real

 

You say it until you calm

Until you can shut your eyes

Without seeing whatever

Scared you the most

Until your brain stops signaling

You to panic

 

It’s not real

 

Remind yourself again

Because now you are awake

And you are in the world

Not in your bend

And you feel like you’re

Tipping backwards in a chair

 

It’s not real

 

Stop trying to figure out

What’s wrong or why you’re scared

Nothing happened today

Is big enough to feel this afraid

 

It’s not real

 

Keep saying it

Anxiety is just a nightmare

Your brain is signaling danger

But there is nothing there

So say it like your alone

White-knuckled under covers

And ground yourself

 

In something real

Redwood

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Lean on me

And I will not fall

Cut me down

And I will continue to grow

Dig me out

And I will make a home

Out of whatever ground

I can find

 

And I will never ask

To lean on you

Or try to cut

You back

Because I know

You couldn’t bear

The weight

 

Nor could you

Remember how to live

After damage

Because the only way

You feel secure

Is by making yourself believe

Your blood is more precious

Than mine

Dragon Rider

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Solar power fuels my soul

Light’s the greatest treasure

My hands can hold

Ultraviolent is in my veins

Kindled beneath my flesh

As I grip the reigns

I am the sun

I ride on fire

Nothing can taint me

My flight is higher

I feast on failure

And spit victory

Blazing breath

So you don’t touch me

I capture the starlight

And eclipse the moon

Comets are jealous

Of the valor I’ve strewn

Dragon blood is in my heart

Beating out gold

I am made of art

Release

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It was a dream

That sparkled in my mind

And melted like a frost

Lost

Like a coin drifting

Through salt in the sea

Soon to be blanketed

By seaweed on the reef

I could never hold my breath

Long enough to reach

I’ll never see through

The darkness of the deep

Blue

Shadows overwhelm me

The glimmer is gone

I cannot reclaim artifacts

From history

Leave it be

Let the dream

Be a dream

Unlived

Contaminated

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If love is such a sickness

I hope you catch it

With me

I hope it’s so contagious

That it hits you

Like a sneeze

I hope it’s stirring up

Your senses

Every time we speak

I hope the locking of

Our eyes

Makes your muscles weak

If love is such a sickness

Let’s call out for a day

Curl up

Side by side

Until the weakness

Goes away